I took the day off from the gym because I have cramps and heavy gushings and the gym is no place for that kind of foolishness. Bad enough having the discomfort without thinking every ten minutes "Am I leaking? Am I bleeding out?" and having to run and check. Most of the time the answer is no - I'm just anxious about such things. But the one time I ignore it though, and I'll be sorry. Most of the time it's just sweat. Hot Summers and sweaty hoo-haas are why I hate cotton underpants. But apart from that, I also have sore joints today. The worst being my second toe on my right foot. Damn that hurts! Feels like it's about to go into a cramp and just won't. My thumb joint is also sore., not to mention the lower back due to the cramps I already mentioned. These little reminders of getting older with sore joints isn't nice.
Gave myself a panic earlier today, after I'd finished my ramen soup lunch, I went upstairs to get dressed to take Shorty to school and I noticed this red ring on my right breast. What the hell is that!? Freaked I immediately began a brest exam to check for lumps - which you're not supposed to do during your period because breasts get lumpy at that time anyway. So I'm padding my fingers around my breasts, nothing unusual - except there kind of an empty space on the bottom of the right one. Not me, I don't find a lump - I find a space. Anyways, I figure I better get in touch with the doctor, begin worrying about the history of breast cancer in my family when I realize - like a light bulb - I had my soup mug resting on my breast while I ate my soup and it's just ed from the bottom of the bowl. Breasts come in handy sometimes! I felt like the relieved dumbass that I am.
It's the last few days of school for the girls. Thursday they get a half day. Shorty's pre-school is having a party and I said I would bring cupcakes. I'll have to make about 50 cupcakes. So they'll be mini ones. With simple frosting. I've also decided that instead of going mad and getting meaningful presents for the five teachers (Shorty has four) I'll just buy them all a bottle of wine. Tesco has a deal on where if you buy six bottles you'll get %25 off. So five for them and one for me. Sounds fair. In the meantime I'm getting the pre-summer holidays anxiety. What The Fuck Will I Do With them All Summer?! It'll pass. I know the six weeks will breeze by and before I know it, it'll be Autumn and I'll be praying for time to rewind back to this day. Preferably after the embarrassing red-tit incident.
I'm hoping there will be thunderstorms tonight. Feels like it could. Maybe not quite hot enough. Weather station only predicts 30% chance of T-storms, but I'd really like some spectacular kabooms and lightning just now. Makes me feel alive and rooted in the moment.